Today is my birthday...

So this past month or so, I've been going through a lot of things. It's hard to explain, but I think it's pretty obvious, now. I haven't been the happiest person in the world, but I try and hide it as best I can. I'm sorry if I've become distant...it's just the way I tend to deal with things. I think about it everyday, but I won't write about it here...now is not the time, and here is not really the place. I write to vent, and I write to understand...to see my words more clearly. I'm the kind of person with a million thoughts going through my mind, and since talking isn't always an option, writing is my next best solution.

Last week, I found out that my father has skin cancer. That, too, hit me pretty hard. Quite frankly, it scares the hell out of me. My best friend was diagnosed with cancer about 3 years ago, and to this day it still affects her. Such a beautiful girl...and so undeserving. I admire her for more things than she'll probably ever know. She is my best friend, the best kind a girl could have. I know no matter how far apart or how long it's been...we'll always be...best friends. This past December, I also lost a friend to cancer. It was completely heartbreaking. I was close with him. I miss our late night talks we used to have and his quirky sense of humor. I never got to tell him how much I really cared...although, I know he watches over me now with the rest of our friends and his loved ones. What would I be without these people in my life? They are so much stronger than I'll ever be. My father...he is everything to me. He knows me better than anyone in this world, and I turn to him for everything. Without him, I don't know what I'd do. The doctors say they have a good chance of removing it all, so I will pray for this everynight.

Besides writing though...I've been trying to keep myself occupied in other ways. I'm finally back to dance after taking a month hiatus, I've been working on a new Jiscilla.com, and I've been busy spending a lot of time with my family......not to mention, this past weekend, I got to hang out with some super cool new friends.

So on a lighter note....Mike, Trevor, & I headed out on a 4-hour bus ride to Boston where we met up with Dan & Phil. The boys went to a Red Sox game and I got to see my BFF, Niquealla, whom I haven't seen in months. She starts up Law School in a couple weeks and with that work load, who knows when my next chance to see her will be. I've missed her more than I could imagine. She is like a sister to me. Unfortunately we only got to hang for a couple hours, then it was off to Rhode Island later that night with the boys. We were going to see Monty Are I play for their CD Release show at Lupos in downtown Providence. It was kinda funny...I noticed their tickets had the same exact date from the last time I was there at that venue just one year ago. They did an amazing job, though....seriously such an amazing show. Their hometown crowd is so awesome and everytime I see them play, I get completely caught up in it. They are so talented and their performances are so full of energy. I truely love their music, and you can tell that they really love what they do. Can't wait for them to come to the city, so we could rock out again.

But of course, what's a CD Release show without an afterparty? My girlington, Erica, had set up one hell of a party for the boys...including strippers and all (haha jk...well sorta. We didn't really have control over the girls dancing on top of the bars). So yea, we had good times dancing the night away even sans Gym Class Heroes & Snakes On A Plane...but we made the most of it. Next day, my new friends and I hit up the diner across from Erica's apt...then chilled with Rita (lol). Eventually, it was time to make our way home back to the big ol' city. Christy, Kelly (fellow New Yorkers) & I hopped on the bus for 5 hour trip home where a man literally sat on me (well my legs, at least, while I was asleep), but overall...good times.

Rita's is my new found ice cream subsitution obsession. We're so myspace: