Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Sands of time

Ahhhh writing has become obsessive to me. I feel like every second I have these thoughts coming into my head, and I just need to write them down. Maybe it's cause I missed out, maybe I just have all this angst built up. I hate working a full time job (and 3 other part-times). I'm still a teenager at heart. There's so much I want to do with my life, and I feel like time is already running out.

Currently Listening
Shadows Are Security
By As I Lay Dying

To work or not to work?

Not sure what to do. I have a wedding to go to this cousin's to be exact, but I got asked to work a Hpnotiq event on Saturday for some Katrina Relief Fundraiser. I can do both, but it might cause a lil stress. I can def use the money (it's a big event so we get paid more), but I can bet my parents won't be too happy about picking me up from the train station at 9:00 at night. Yea, that's almost past their bedtime, lol. What to do...what to do?

Currently Listening
Kelis Was Here
By KelisTrilogy

Monday, August 21, 2006

Rest for tomorrow

Again...I have so much on my mind that I just want to let all out, but I'm sleepy and I really need my rest for tomorrow. I have no idea what the day is going to bring, but I know I will be plenty busy seeing as it is market week. I need to leave early for my audition, too....I hope it goes well. I'm not nervous...more just worried about what to wear. Every audition is so different, but I was pretty much informed today to go ready like we're shooting a video. Definitely kicking myself in the ass, now, for missing a month cause my body isn't as toned as it was before. Also, I haven't danced in stilettos since the spring, so this should be interesting. Even if I don't get it, it's a good way to get myself back in the routine of things. I still have yet to find out exactly what it's for...the rumor mill has been brewing with all the possibilities regarding the time of year. It all seems to make sense, but too much is going on in the industry right now to really know. Guess I'll find out tomorrow.

Sleepy Sleep tired.

Currently Listening
Mind, Body & Soul
By Joss Stone

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Today is my birthday...

So this past month or so, I've been going through a lot of things. It's hard to explain, but I think it's pretty obvious, now. I haven't been the happiest person in the world, but I try and hide it as best I can. I'm sorry if I've become's just the way I tend to deal with things. I think about it everyday, but I won't write about it is not the time, and here is not really the place. I write to vent, and I write to see my words more clearly. I'm the kind of person with a million thoughts going through my mind, and since talking isn't always an option, writing is my next best solution.

Last week, I found out that my father has skin cancer. That, too, hit me pretty hard. Quite frankly, it scares the hell out of me. My best friend was diagnosed with cancer about 3 years ago, and to this day it still affects her. Such a beautiful girl...and so undeserving. I admire her for more things than she'll probably ever know. She is my best friend, the best kind a girl could have. I know no matter how far apart or how long it's been...we'll always friends. This past December, I also lost a friend to cancer. It was completely heartbreaking. I was close with him. I miss our late night talks we used to have and his quirky sense of humor. I never got to tell him how much I really cared...although, I know he watches over me now with the rest of our friends and his loved ones. What would I be without these people in my life? They are so much stronger than I'll ever be. My father...he is everything to me. He knows me better than anyone in this world, and I turn to him for everything. Without him, I don't know what I'd do. The doctors say they have a good chance of removing it all, so I will pray for this everynight.

Besides writing though...I've been trying to keep myself occupied in other ways. I'm finally back to dance after taking a month hiatus, I've been working on a new, and I've been busy spending a lot of time with my family......not to mention, this past weekend, I got to hang out with some super cool new friends.

So on a lighter note....Mike, Trevor, & I headed out on a 4-hour bus ride to Boston where we met up with Dan & Phil. The boys went to a Red Sox game and I got to see my BFF, Niquealla, whom I haven't seen in months. She starts up Law School in a couple weeks and with that work load, who knows when my next chance to see her will be. I've missed her more than I could imagine. She is like a sister to me. Unfortunately we only got to hang for a couple hours, then it was off to Rhode Island later that night with the boys. We were going to see Monty Are I play for their CD Release show at Lupos in downtown Providence. It was kinda funny...I noticed their tickets had the same exact date from the last time I was there at that venue just one year ago. They did an amazing job, though....seriously such an amazing show. Their hometown crowd is so awesome and everytime I see them play, I get completely caught up in it. They are so talented and their performances are so full of energy. I truely love their music, and you can tell that they really love what they do. Can't wait for them to come to the city, so we could rock out again.

But of course, what's a CD Release show without an afterparty? My girlington, Erica, had set up one hell of a party for the boys...including strippers and all (haha jk...well sorta. We didn't really have control over the girls dancing on top of the bars). So yea, we had good times dancing the night away even sans Gym Class Heroes & Snakes On A Plane...but we made the most of it. Next day, my new friends and I hit up the diner across from Erica's apt...then chilled with Rita (lol). Eventually, it was time to make our way home back to the big ol' city. Christy, Kelly (fellow New Yorkers) & I hopped on the bus for 5 hour trip home where a man literally sat on me (well my legs, at least, while I was asleep), but overall...good times.

Rita's is my new found ice cream subsitution obsession. We're so myspace:

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2006

So I just got word...

The one-hour 2006 Victoria's Secret Fashion Show, which will be broadcast on the CBS Television Network in December 2006, began as an Internet event in 1996 and, due to its overwhelming success, was picked-up for broadcast rights by CBS in 2001.

This year, the show moves from New York to the Kodak Theater in Los Angeles for the first time, and features top models Gisele Bundchen, Adriana Lima, Izabel Goulart, Karolina Kurkova, Alessandra Ambrosio, and Selita Ebanks, as well as some very special guests, informs an official release.

This year's fashion spectacular will feature dazzling runway segments, musical performances, red carpet interviews, model profiles and a behind-the-scenes look at the making of the world's most celebrated fashion show, adds the release.

For those that know me...know how big of a deal this is for me. Working for the company for more than 4 years and having spent approximately $8,000 (all discounted, too...and yes, they keep track on our files of how much we spend) over that period of time shows just how much I love anything and everything VS. Lord, I didn't even know I made that much money while working for Anyways, but yea...basically I love Victoria's Secret.

I'm a little sad to find out they moved the location from NY to LA. Last year, my friend Joanna was in the show...dancing of course (although, she's 5'11 and has the body of a VS model). She was one of the "toy soliders" was a very cute excerpt they did. I wonder if any of my friends in LA will get casted. I don't think any of them are that tall though.

Kinda excited to see who they chose to walk the runway though...Here would be my "dream angels team:"

The Veterans aka Angels
Adriana Lima
Alessandra Ambrosio
Gisele Bunchen
Izabel Goulart
Karolina Kurkova
Naomi Cambell

The Returners
Ana-Beatriz Barros
Bianca Balti
Carmen Kass
Caroline Trentini
Caroline Winberg
Doutzen Kroes
Eugenia Volodina
Jacquetta Wheeler
Julia Stegnor
Liya Kebede
Morgane Dubled
Natasha Poly
Oluchi Onweagaba
Omahyra Mota
Polina Kouklina
Ujjwala Raut

The Newcomers
Ai Tominaga
Anja Rubik
Cintia Dicker
Daria Werbowy
Dewi Driegen
Du Juan
Freja Beha
Hana Soukapova
Heather Marks
Jessica Stam
Mariacarla Boscono
Miranda Kerr
Noemi Lenoir
Sessilee Lopez
Tasha Tilberg
Tuii Kuik
Valentina Zeliaeva

Not sure if I got Veterans and Newcomers all right, but I think that's what they are.
Uh I can't wait!

To all my VS at my place this year!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Project Runway - Fashion Icons

Uh....ok, so I have to comment on tonight's Project Runway!

First of all, Project Runway is basically my favorite show. I never watch tv, so it's rare when there's something I find I really have to watch...and yea, this show is "the one" for me. Lol. I think it's just so brilliantly done...and I tend to question if others feel the same...that is, if they weren't in the fashion industry. Everyone I know that's in this industry is obsessed with the show. Last season, one of the contestants was even an old roommate from FIT of a co-worker of mine. Small world.

Anyways, enough of that...tonight's show!

1) Michael has been my favorite since day 1. He's cute, sweet, and his taste is soooo my style. Every single show, I just love him more and more. I'm so happy he won tonight (oops, hopefully that wasn't a spoiler for anyone). But really, they haven't been showcasing him enough and showing off all his work, but I'm predicting this is because I think he'll be in the top 3. Plus, he doesn't really cause any drama...which is what the cameras love. He's just too sweet. Did you see how he called his mama tonight? Too freagin cute!

2) Can Angela please get kicked off already??? I mean, seriously...she just annoying. I was so pissed she had immunity to tonight's cut. She got so "big-headed" after winning last week's challenge. She needs to go take her lil' "rosettes" and shove them down her throat...enough already!

3) Uli freakin amazes me...she might be my new idol. She works soooooooo well with prints. I'm jealous.


4) I'm sad Bradley's gone. He did kinda deserve to get cut, but I love his personality. He's adorable. He reminds me exactly of this guy, Andy, I work with. I mean...pretty much dead the tone in his voice and even the way he looks (minus the curly hair and beard). I'm gonna miss him. :-/

But for who I want to go to the final 3....well I have 4 candidates: Definitely Michael...then Uli, Allison, and Laura (I kinda like her sarcasm).

What do you think?

PS...I liked tonight's challenge. They definitely switched things up A LOT though, with the whole model situation. Made me mad at first, but then it kinda made things interesting. Not really sure it was "fair," but I guess that's all in an opinion.
Ahh well...can't wait till next week's episode.

Wednesday, August 9, 2006

Monty Are I, Danity Kane, & Cassie...OH MY!

Quick lil' side note...

So I just got word that one of my dance instructors, Manwe (I was in his showcase piece last winter) choreographed for DANITY KANE and is gonna be on their season finale show tomorrow if you happen to watch, look for him. He's extremely talented and extremely hott (yea, I said it...Manwe, you're hott. Not much of a secret, though).

Me & Manwe

And as for CASSIE...

Rhapsody (my other dance instructor), has spent endless hours with her on preparing her for her debut album which just came out in stores yesterday. A bunch of my girls I dance with, as well, have been performing with her at all her live make sure to go out and get the ablum cause we've been playin it at the studio for like 3 months now and it's definitely a hott R&B album.

Annnnnnd...I sooooo apologize for not posting this any earlier, good friends of MONTY ARE I had their first full-length album under Stolen Transmission Records come out on August 1st....and let me just tell you, you need to go out and get it. It's pretty much...hmmm how should I put this...face-melting? Yes, that's it...definitely face-melting. I don't want no "ifs" "ands" or "buts"...I mean, I already have all the songs already, but I'm going to buy it anyways, so if I'm gonna buy it, that means you should too. And the only reason why I haven't bought it already is cause I'm waiting to go to their CD Release show this weekend in their hometown of Providence, Rhode Island just so I can buy it personally. I want the whole package deal, mang! So buy buy buy and support support support...spread that Monty love.

Oh and sorry bout the lack of updates...I'll get around to it...promise.