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My Letter to the UK

Dear UK,

I am writing you right now cause I think you have something that is of great value to me. He's about 6ft tall (maybe more like 5'11), blonde hair, blue eyes (that change colors with what he wears), has this really cute accent that I guess you can call "Southern," and tends to have a liking to chicken fingers and ketchup (possibly even tostitos). So yes, I'd like ma jerms back, please. I think you've had him for long enough and it's only fair that you return him to me. Without him, I will wilt away and probably turn into a sea monkey...so yea, this is why I need him back. Thanks.

Jiscilla

Him ... ♥

I don't even know where to start, but I miss him so much.

I know we don't get to see eachother everyday, but I always feel like he is right here with me. Not a moment goes by without him being on my mind, and I've fallen more and more in love with him everyday. Never have I ever felt this way about someone. I've never met anyone like him. He is all I could have ever wanted in a boyfriend and so much more. His heart is always in the right place and I've learned so much from him already. He makes me want to be a better person...and I wish that upon myself so that I can be just that for him. He means the world to me and without him I wouldn't know how happy I could be.

I love you, Jeremy...with all my heart.

A Quickie

Ok so I went back and read my entry from last night, and I'm not too sure if it made sense, but in my head it definitely did. So take it as you will. Kinda makes me feel a bit vulnerable putting my feelings out there, but whatever. I meant what I said.

Anyways, I just wanted to let you know....I have tons of NEW PICS up! Pictures from my trip to Tennessee about a month ago and pictures from two Paramore shows (one in Long Island & one from The Knitting Factory here in the city). Feel free to take a gander.

Plus, hopefully sometime in the near future, I am looking to put up more video links. I have tons from our dance classes at Broadway Dance Center and they are crazy hott. Which also, brings me to Cassie. I'll definitely mention more about her later, but y'all should be watching out for her cause she's gonna blow up real soon and her entire album is definitely hott. Rhapsody has been working with her and she's been in and out of BDC a lot. Check her out if you haven't already (http://www.myspace.com/cassiemyspacemusic).

Aight that's it for now...I gotta get back to work...Much love!

♥
J-rock

Reflective

Ok...so everytime I go to write an entry...I never end up finishing. So I'm gonna step away from being so structured and just kinda write...type...whatever it is that I'm thinking. I suppose my mind has been on cloud 9 lately, so my thoughts have been all over the place, although that's nothing really new. I've always thought that I thunk too much...wait, that's not even right. But do you ever wonder how things happen? Like....why? Why do these sorts of things happen? There's a reason, right? Definitely. I definitely believe that everything happens for a reason, and that one event always leads to another. There's a reason why you meet the people you do...a reason why we go through certain experiences, good OR bad. We may not find out exactly why for a long time....or we may never even get to figure it out at all....but still, there is a reason. God gave us this beautiful gift of life and it is ours to do what we will with it. It's only what we make of it, so why not make it the best?

I've never felt this way before and I never want it to stop. It kinda caught me by surprise. I never expected for this to happen, and I didn't mean for it to, but I couldn't be happier that it did. I'm sorry if lately I've seemed aloof and I'm sorry if I've hurt anybody in the process, but I've fallen. I almost tried hard not to, but I think you kind of know when it's ok....when it's ok to let yourself go. You almost deserve it to yourself. Why not feel happy? Why not enjoy life the way it was meant to. Sure, there are obstacles, no one ever said it would be easy. What is meant to be, will be.

Everything has happened so fast, but there's no question in my mind that I love him. He makes me feel beautiful, and every minute away from him seems like an eternity. Not a second goes by that I don't think of him, and I am happiest when we are together. I feel so comfortable around him and I love the way he makes me laugh. He is everything I've always hoped for and more. He is this amazing person and I am lucky enough that he is mine.

The Week In Review

Been a couple days, but I'm workin on it. So yea, I put up new pics from the John Varvatos Fashion Show & Afterparty. Such a fun night...y'all can tell from the pictures, I'm sure. Don't be afraid to comment on them or rate them. I like some sort of feedback so I know you're all alive out there.

This Past Week: My Interview
I went on an interview for basically what I would call my ultimate dream job. Something like this, I believe only comes around once in a blue moon...and as far as I know, blue moons usually only happen once in one's lifetime, lol...so yea, it seemed soooo friggin' cool. It's a position as an assistant stylist for an agency that does magazine/editorial shoots, celebrity clients, etc...and the environment and everyone seemed so chill...I loved it. I'm used to the whole corporate vibe which I hate so much. It's so much more my style and I would loooooooove to get this job, but unfortunately the pay is so low. I totally am not surprised, though, cause that's just how it is when you start out in the fashion industry, but I mean, it's hard for me to take a step back...especially when my rent is costing me a fortune. NYC is by no means cheap. I would definitely be willing take a step back for this job just so I could transfer to this side of the industry, but I really just can't afford to. I would not be able to pay my rent each month and it just breaks my heart. It's like 20% less than what I'm getting paid now and that's signicant drop! Uhhh, I want to cry. But who knows, I don't even know if I got the job anyways...so I guess there's no need to worry just yet. I'll just have to wait and see. *sigh*

Yesterday...St. Patty's Day
So for all of you that really know me out there...know that I absolutely DESPISE St. Patrick's Day! As much as I love the color green...I boycott it this day every year. In my eyes, it is the most sorry excuse for a holiday. Do you even know what the hell you are really celebrating??? And before you start getting all defensive, just know that I, too, am part Irish. But why does America seem to think that this day is purely an excuse to get drunk (yes, New Year's is like that too, but it seems more logical). Here, St. Patrick's Day is about wearing green & getting drunk on green beer...y'all know this is a religious holiday, right? I just hate how people misuse holidays to get obliterated...I mean, sure, a lil celebrating is great for any holiday, but the fact that like 90% of people only think of St Patricks Day as another reason to drink just annoys the crap out of me. Ok, so I'm starting to go on way too much about this, so i'll end it all here. Hope you all had fun and stayed safe, but just know that you didn't see me partaking in any of these events....I went to dance class instead, what a surprise...haha jk. Great class last night, though...way to bring it back to the street, Jamie. So happy you chose to do that routine...it is, by far, one of my all time favs. GANGSTA!

Today
Today, I woke up early...I did my usual attempt to clean on a Saturday morning only to come out, once again, unsuccessful. I ended up going to visit my friend Yaffa, though, (only some have the privilege of knowing who she is)...came home, went to the market on my lil island and bought me some hella good fresh strawberries...yum. Now, I'm bout to get ready to go down to Brooklyn to start the festivities and celebrate Temis's birthday, Williamsburg style....if any of you are out down that way, hit up my cell or the 'Kick and we'll get down...peace n' love.

J-Skillz

My New Obsession.....YouTube

Ok so I'm kind of addicted to this new site called YouTube.com. It's a site that hosts your videos for free (although, I don't know for how long), but it's pretty much cool cause you can share videos and whatnot. And since I tried uploading some dance videos to my site before and didn't really have them work out too well for me, I just uploaded them there and now they work perfectly. So if you go to my media page (once again, "Make Me Smile/Cry") you'll see I added like 5 new videos. Two are from dance. One was from Luam's class this past Thursday, and the other is from Jamie's class back in October (you'll see me in the front with the camo hoodie and hat). Then 2 others are from Jeremy's show I went to about 2 weeks ago in Randolph, NJ. It was a really great performance with a really great crowd, so you should check 'em out. And then, the last one, I randomly came across on YouTube...it's from the Warped date I went to last summer to see Monty. Ryan was really sick that day and the quality's not great (in fact, it kinda sux and doesn't do the boys justice). But yea, videos are just as fun as pictures...so go check them out and let me know if you likey.

On another note...you should all go out and pick up the latest copy of AP (Alternative Press) Magazine cause my babe's band has a huge 2 page spread as 'Bands To Know For 2006.'

PS...I hear squirrels are looking really hott this year (sorry, I couldn't resist)...i♥u


That's it for now. Off to a good start with keepin up the ups! ;)

Much love!
~J~

The Latest...

Alright, so I made this promise to myself to freakin update this thing more often because my website is becoming boring, and Jiscilla is anything but boring (although, I'm sure some will beg to differ seeing as I never go out anymore...but work with me, here, people). So as part of me updating this lil section right here...I will also change the music on my page more frequently like I promised ages ago, but hey...I'm sorry, can you blame me?...Paramore is by far the best band EVER and not just cause my boyfriend is the bassist. I can't even begin to explain how happy he makes me. He came to stay with me when he had a day off between tours and we seriously had so much fun. I got to show him a lil bit of Roosey, the place I call home...and I also brought him to Broadway Dance Center cause he wanted to see where I pretty much spend most of my life. Then we went across the street from BDC and ate lunch/dinner at this really awesome diner...which, let me add...we sat directly across from Adam Sandler,...too funny. He looks, acts, and sounds exactly the same as he does in his movies. But then, after that, we attempted to go to Central Park but decided we were too cold and wanted to just go home and watch a movie. But before we did that, we did a lil grocery shopping so he could make his favorite meal later on that night...yum. And then, when the time came to pop in the movie, I warned him that I was feeling really sleepy, and sure enough, I fell asleep before the previews were even over. But let me just say, my boy is the cutest thing ever. While I was sleeping, he cleaned up the kitchen and picked up my entire bedroom for me. Seriously, who does that?...I swear, he's perfect. Okay, sorry...I'm startin to gush and I know some of y'all have a hard time stomaching it...lol. I don't care, though, cause he's the best! It was really hard to say goodbye the next day, though...the whole traveling thing is gonna be hard to get used to. However, right now, I am really happy cause in exactly 2 weeks I will be flying out to Nashville to stay with him for a few days. Finally, I get to see all this great stuff I hear about Franklin, Tennessee...yay! But that's it for now...hopefully I'll keep up with this updating thing like I say I will. So until then......Adios!

xoxox
~J~

So This Is Freakin' Rad

Please tell me this is not the most insane thing you have ever seen. (Watch the whole video)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=HSoVKUVOnfQ

Wooo...Update!

Helllllllllllllllloooo Every-body!
Again, like always...it's been a while. Someone's been telling me to update my pictures, so I did just that. They're from the Monty show at The Continental back in January. Good times like always although they did decide to be pussies and not come back downtown from their hotel room afterwards for a night of drunken debauchery (only to find out that they did, in fact, make their way downtown after we were all nicely tucked into our beds). What great friends we have! Haha...jk.

More To Come...

Sooo...
I have way more pictures to put up...the John Varvatos Fashion Show & Afterparty and the MC Crew Reunion @ Branch. Not to mention I have a few pics from the Paramore show last night in Newburgh, NY, although most of them were either blurry or too far away. Which speaking of...was the best night ever. I finally got to see my love. So much fun. Was even more amazing than I could have imagined. I'm on cloud 9. Can't wait to see him again tomorrow...and the next day...and the next...oh and then the next. :) He make me so happy. Baby, you need to send me your pics so I can post them all over the internet...haha jk....you know you love your little nerd. But yea...I'm oh-so happy, and I'll leave it at that......for now.

New Video!

So finallllly....I put up a video from class at BDC (Broadway Dance Center). You can find it in the "Make Me Smile/Cry" Media section. Jamie was teaching that night, subbing for Rhapsody. This was one of my favorites he's done...straight up hood! It was so ghetto...we were all just feelin it that night. Definitely hott...you know how I do ;) lol. Anyways, check it out. I'm the one kinda on the left in my camo hoodie and hat. Hopefully I'll get more vids soon...till then...

One Frizzy Down...6 More To Go!

Yep, that's right! A Frizzy is engaged! Can you believe it? Congratulations MEL & ROG! This is insane...and of course, I got the phone call (er more like a voice mail) at like 2:00 in the morning and I instantly begin to tear. I so felt like Jo-Jo...although, I think we are all beginning to become such saps. I'm so happy for the both of you. We are gonna have our first Frizzy-in-law!!! This is great. The date is already set and you know we're gonna make it the best day ever. I still can't believe that in about a year and a half we will have a Mrs. on board. I love you Melon-Butthead...Promise that you'll still continue to catch my snakes even after you are hitched. *tear*

Yup, I'm One Of "Them" Now

So yea, I held off for a year or so, but I finally caved. I didn't want to give in to the addiction, but I failed and bought myself a sidekick about a month or so ago. I knew it'd be trouble so I tried oh-so hard to stay away, but now, of course, I'm addicted. Surprise surprise. So please...from now on, anyone looking to text me...text me on my sidekick where it doesnt cost me any money. In fact, I hope you all text me a lot cause I thoroughly enjoy text-scapades...haha that was way gay. But if you don't have the number already, just hit me up, and I'll send it your way. Oh and a bunch of people have been asking me about the "via hiptop" thing in my AIM profile...well that means I'm on AIM on my sidekick, not at my compy. And for those that don't know what a sidekick is...step up your game and do your research.




♥I'm addicted to this...and I'm not just talking about my sidekick♥


Alright, that's it for now...I'm about to go finish cleaning up my apartment cause well....you know me.

Much love...I love you all!
xoxo
Jiscil